ok so i tired again when i woke up to make a psi ball i counted up from 1 to 30 [ getting distracted many times along the way and having to refocus on the counting, breathing and visualising the numbers] once finally at 30 i tried to in vision my stomach area full of energy a vast ocean of energy for my use, sometimes when i do this it feels like there is some pressure there , didnâ€™t feel much of anything today, anways after that i concentrated on sending energy up from there through my shoulders and arms and out of my hands, now this is the annoying part when i concentrated on make a steady flow of energy all i got was the itch/tingle/ heat in my palms but when i concentrated on pulsing the energy up my arms and out i managed to make a pulsing psi ball between my hands, a baby ball maybe as the second i moved my focus i lost the sensation, and when i tried to turn the pulsing in to just a flow whatever was between my hands seems to just, ebb away like a balloon with a whole, not a pop just a steady deflating in to nothingness.
so any idea why i cant make a flow but can a pulse?
does it really matter if i pulse or flow energy ?
also how can i hold the ball? it seems to me im not making a ball just lots of energy without form between my hands and when i stop sending energy in whats there just dissipates.