For years, I've been able to do really weird things. Things that most people would probably call superhuman/supernatural. But i do them, just by being...me, i guess, lol. Every experience i've ever had, for as far back as i can remember, i tend to ponder, analyze, and dissect until I reach the very root of why i am having that specific feeling. I didn't talk until I was about five years of age, and a lot of the doctors thought i may be autistic. But Turns out I'm not, lol. Anyway, I've been able to get it to the point where i don't feel pain anymore, (or hardly ever). I've done this by analyzing where the pain originates. I stubbed my toe once, and it hurt, and my mind began doing it's thing, and I tracked the origin all the way back to the first insecurity i ever had about myself years prior to stubbing my toe. My theory suggested that all physical pain is determined about how confident one is, and how many insecurities they have. Think about it; people in a rage don't feel pain. Why? Because they are fully, and 100% in the moment, and 100% confident, and 100% devoted to pummeling whoever they are angry at through a wall, lol. Pain is merely a message going to your brain. I have eliminated almost all experiences of pain by telling myself: My mind is an answering machine, and pain is a message...I don't need to listen to it, lol, deleted.
But today, i fear I may have done something a little risky. I have been pretty depressed lately, and so I decided to test another theory of mine. Invulnerabilty. If i lived: I would know my theory worked. If I died: I would have the pleasure of being able to see what's next in my journey. lol.
I hopped onto a fourwheeler, and went out by an old dirt road that they fenced in due to the pipe line being there. The gates are made of cast iron steel, and are semishort, and horizontal acroos the road. My experiment: Crash the fourwheeler into the gate at top speed.
This was a forestry fourwheeler, so top speed was only 65 miles per hour. Only. lol. I got way back and hit it full throttle in the highest gear setting. When I was nearing the gate i was goin too fast to stop, however i began to think that maybe it was such a good idea. But it was too late. I crashed into it full on. The chain that lockes the gates are thicker than thumb, and are doubled. They snapped instantly, but the impetus sent me flying into a tree twenty five feet away at nearly seventy miles per hour.
while flying towards what would be concenred certain death for most, I was able to visualize my body becomindg hardened like a stone. I then made myself believe i was only gonna fly for a couple feet, and only at a low speed. Instead I slammed into the tree faster than a sports car. I was in shock for a couple minutes, but then realized what had happened. I tried getting up, but my right leg wouldn't work. i told it to work, and then i could feel it, and I was able to get up, but i fell down again. I saw the handle bars of the fourwheeler laying next to me, with the module. the numbers 67 were burned into it, and a bunch of wires had been ripped out. I realized that I was missing my helmet, i crawled around looking for it, and saw it by the tree. The visor and side had been crushed. I mustve pulled it off while in shock. Either that or it got ripped off some how. I came to my sneses again and was able to walk over to the fourwheeler with out too much effort. The tree had a split in it, and the fourwheeler was totalled and the gate was dented. I began making my way down the road where i got a ride from some guy in a pick up, then i called my parents and told them I had an "accident" but that I'm okay. I had a slight bruise on my hip. That's it. When my dad took the fourwheeler to the shop, the mechanics were dumbfounded that I hadn't been killed. My parents have always known about my abilities, and they never wanted me to tell anyone. But being I was a kid when they told me not to, I told everyone, and they didn't believe me, so i showed them, and now they think I'm a satanist. I think of myself as a philosopher and a scientist, as well as someone who can grasp the concepts of mind over matter very well apparently. I still don't know if this little "experiment" was such a good idea, but now I know something for sure: I can psyche myself into being damn near invincible. lol