Personal fields of interest (mine at least)

Hello all. I am mostly interested of NOT PK, NOT MK, NOT AEROKINESIS EITHER, NOT TK, NOT any phenomenon which uses these branches of whatever... My main interest goes to How to use the human potential and how to train my mind to direct my subconscious to do whatever it is I desire in life. And it could be used to help others as well. How do I dowse my own mind for fears and blockages? How do I train my mind to become the most powerful and resilient thing in existence? For example. And how do I learn to train my mind properly in meditation, energy centres stimulation, activation, and all-round functionality. The most interesting thing to me is how do I get my inspirational ideas into reality. Or sub-reality, or whatever the buffer-zone can be called.

Some techniques I've accidentally done (not trained):
1) partial invisibility = like a storm of ionic particles surfacing parts of my being/skin, rendering a part of my neck and right arm, invisible (blocks light?) for at least for a duration of 30 minutes... This happened after sex with a stranger.
2) devil's shield / illusion field ( my choice ):
a super heavily dense, and impressive shield of abundance of green, black, silver, and other color created once such a heavy density, that I felt impenetratable. The shield could almost be seen with bare eyes and rotated with high velocity wielding its might. No person could come close when it was on, and everyone, even friends, were at a good distance, never even trying to make a connection to me. I've called the phenomenon the "devil shield" because it's the strongest I've ever witnessed.
Another side of this, its use can be altered, where its no longer a shield, but it takes functionality where it controls surrounding people and their behaviour. Like as if everyone is inside my own little "game".
Still upto this day I haven't got a damned idea what it is, but it is. Simply.

So what I want to learn is direct good meditation, and getting my mind in certain states of being with practise that I desire...

I don't much care for energy manipulations used for TK, PK, CK or such... I do not search for material power in this sense, I search for some degree of mastery of self.