Few years ago I started to research various topics that was interesting to me. Starting from meditation to Alchemy and various other topics regarding spiritual world and unified energy. At the end I realized that everything narrows down to same basic principles and it does not matter how you call it.
And than I started to experiment... Meditate, tried to manipulate with energy, tried to tap into "unified energy/knowledge" (dont know how to call it, in various teachings it is called differently but have the same meaning)
I asked for grater knowledge and understanding... and here starts my problem. I did get it. At the beginning it was fun and interesting. I started to understand things I couldn't understand before. For example, when I look at any complex mechanism I could understan how it work. Only by looking on persons body language I could read how that person is feeling. I was able to comunicate with people in different languages without even knowing that language (with this I mean that I could understand what they are saying to me not reply to them). Those are just a few things...
But than it get worse... Now all my mind is really messed up. It feels like I know everything and nothing in same time. I dont feel any interest in anything that is around me. I cant work, I dont find any interest in spending time with friends, very often I forgot words for things,... not to mention that sometimes I feel like on information highway... I see and feel every detail in front of me but they disappear in a moments while I notice the next one...
Sorry for my grammar, English is not my primary language, and sorry for such a messed up post, but this is the best I can do with my messed up mind... :/
any suggestions how to fix this or opinions on what should I do now?
Well, something you could try...
Meditate again, and this time, instead of trying to tap into the "unified energy/knowledge" thing, try to disconnect from it. Perhaps visualizing your connection to it as a link or pipe, and then disconnecting/breaking/cutting it would be helpful.
Some kind of centering exercises such as mindfulness meditation, where you sit and focus your awareness on the present, your physical body, etc. may help with managing the flow of information. [url=http://blog.paradigm-sys.com/archives/538]This article[/url] describes the type of meditation that I mean in more detail.
I hope this helps.
Thank you for your replay... I will see what can I do...
I'm not really the 'empath-person' but that sounds quite like the story.
I don't know how to help you specifically... and I understand that you are more intelligent than I am, somehow, in a way.
But routine questions first: Are you an alcoholic or chronic alcohol user? (such as I have been, and it has been the key element of all my problems actually).
Don't abandon the question, ask yourself honestly if this is true.
When I started my training in the field of meditation and psionics, it was very nice in the beginning, and my chakras seemed to have developed quite some in the early days and I was always the person with most energy among just about any people. Felt so hypercharged all the time and inspired.
However... I started to have some problems with my practises... I knew how to psionically seduce people (transmit e.l.f to their brain region, around the ear is the entry point) and it was fantastic, I learned by meditation new sides of myself and such... Something at one point simply appeared to 'snap'. I couldn't do my training anymore, I couldn't even meditate anymore as deeply and as normally I could. I think the cause has actually been alcohol.
Meditation is among the best things you can do. And if you are a social person, spend some time with other people, that just might work for you.
- chevres109
I believe I am not an alcoholic... Yes, I drink few beers or something stronger when I go out with friends, but that is maybe once a week or once in two weeks, so I dont think this could be a problem...
Okay, and sorry about that. My post made no real sense and was completely off anyway. Could it be confused attitudes or some kind of mental confusion?
- chevres109
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Okay, and sorry about that. My post made no real sense and was completely off anyway. Could it be confused attitudes or some kind of mental confusion?
- chevres109
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Best how I can explain it is too much thoughts/information is going through my mind... I cant get my mind clear not even for a moment... at the beginning I was able to focus on thoughts that I needed, but now I just cant think about what I need to think... everything just flows through me...
I think I will need to find mentor... :/
It gets harder as you go. Practice on focusing on a simple object like a yellow circle or red triangle, flat with a black background. That's taking care of 3 thoughts, hold that as long as you can but don't let the shape change.
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